a girl's first heartbreak

malak how I miss you ☹️ 

I remember hanging out with you in 6th grade walking around the track during pe games with defne and rt. im sorry I didn't talk to you enough.

I remember you giving me those fruit candies. everytime I see them I remember you.

I remember you teaching me words in Arabic and telling me about Yemen. I remember trying to talk in the sign language alphabet and laughing when we realized there were different versions per language.

I remember walking the track with you in pe last year. I remember you were almost never there. 

I remember your beautiful voice. You were almost completely fluent in English before you left. 

I remember you showing us your hair. I'd only ever seen you with the hijab. I felt so special. You were so so so beautiful. 

I'm sorry it took me so long to realize you were gone. I didn't realize you would ever leave. 

I hope you're happy in Yemen. I hope your husband is kind to you. I hope you're still spunky. 

When I first realized you'd been married off, I cried and cried. I wish you well. I hope one day we'll meet again. 

today I bought those candies. not the exact ones, but similar. almost exactly the same. they're still good. I miss you.