wesley is the worst

today was so exhausting (╥﹏╥)

math was fun, as always, and it was fun to talk to TC and EB, but i like that I don't really often have to talk because our teacher keeps a steady stream of speech
* watch call me by your name - t loved it!

3rd block was truly awful- WC wouldn't do ANY WORK and just sat around with his feet up and made racist jokes about the igbo people. he's so annoying (_ _)* he wouldn't do any slides, so i asked him to just find a video (because he was so dead set on making everybody do a traditional dance) but he didn't really do that either! he literally just sat there and made fun of the dancing and called everything twerk videos. he's really the worst. stelly was right ;p

foods is kind of bad but I'm holding out hope- kaya and JS are nice. they're not very conversational though and i feel i embarrassed myself because I was talking to JS and I cut him off and was like sorry sorry go ahead and he was like no it's fine i'm done and i didn't hear him so i was like no go ahead! and he was like i wasn't saying anything. UGHHHH so awful but that's okay

4th was alright. i tried talking to VV about BW and how they were hanging out and she just didn't bring it up?? even when she had ample opportunity and i was literally asking her about him. :p maybe she doesn't trust me? stelly mentioned she might just be embarrassed and that's certainly a possibility.. me and CB were kinda ragging on him I suppose when we first told her he liked her soo? but also nothing really has happened (except lots of flirting) so maybe she's like it doesn't matter ?? idk it kind of made me sad cuz maybe we're not as close as I'd hoped. i'm trying to not get hung up on it though. she still loves me trust

after school I went to starbucks with bird and stelly !! it was so fun hehe :D i never see bird anymore so it was great to hang out with her and stells (o^▽^o) we saw haleigh and LK there and some other girl which was awful but i'm trying to get past my unrational hatred.. hmm. 

i remember in 6th grade when we gave people those ornaments and LK gave me one.. i always felt bad bc i didn't give one but i would never in a million years have guessed she'd give me one. maybe it was pity or smth?? but she had so many friends so idk? 

i also got to see RT today and walked with her a little at lunch and she was like let's trade movies so i have to watch waves this weekend. it's on yt apparently so yippee! i told her to watch moonrise kingdom cuz I couldn't really think of anything else T T moonrise kingdom is pretty great tho (^ . ^) i felt kinda bad cuz she's been trying to get me to watch waves ever since we went to CBS downtown together this summer. whoopsies (_ _)'

BW asked VV out for valentine's today!!! she hasn't answered to my knowledge and so far it's been.. two and a half hours </3 I have great faith that she'll say yes tho.. i mean she has no reason to say no and  i think (?) that's her only prospect rn?? i'm not sure though cuz she might not really tell me as much as I thought :(

also! i finally read the new veil season.. it's so good i love them sm <3 emma is all i want to be and aleksander is everything i want in a partner T T it's like a little book of my manifestations i suppose..

CV wanted me to watch her cat (i'm a last ditch attempt, because all of her other friends couldn't do it), cuz her dad's going to a diff country for awhile and she's gonna be staying with BB who can't host a cat. unfortunately i can't do it cuz of kasey, but i thought it was nice of her to ask.. ? :)

⟡ i've been making a lot more of my boards public hehe i'm so stalkable 
⟡ new jeans has overtaken illit and all the other bands on my last fm top artists.. this is because of my listening to supernatural 14 times. i'm not ashamed that song is peak. 
⟡ i hope to update this blog everyday.. i think it'd be good to have a little record of all the things that happened to me, cuz i mainly use my diary for super important stuff. 
⟡ ZR asked stelly to be his valentine!! 
⟡ AX broke up w/ josh. i felt really bad for her cuz she was like crying this morning and MC was super obnoxious and was like why is she crying and was trying to get the details out of me and eris T T girl 
⟡ we have to do in class essays in english on wednesday.. i'm literally so cooked i'm terrible at essay's anyway.. this is very very bad
⟡ made a google doc for all the abbreviated names! *